"The man of my dreams has almost faded now The one I have created in my mind The sort of man each woman dreams of in the deepest and most secret reaches of her heart I can almost see him now before me What would I say to him, if he were really here? Forgive me, I have never known this feeling I've lived without it all my life Is it any wonder, then, that I fail to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time Is there any way I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say...I cannot find the words. Except for these.."I love you!" Such would I say to him, if he were really here." --Somewhere in Time
dreams of finding someone who would better understand me who would see me through who believes and trusts me
dreams of finding someone who would make me laugh even when we're alone who would surprise me with little thoughts who would pick the simplest flower just to make me smile
these things and more i long for in a man these dreams i couldn't seem to find in you.
yet... why do i still feel this way about you? you who only brought tears and you who only caused heartbreak.
tell me... how foolish am i? for loving someone, in my dreams he's not
tell me... how complicated am i? for hopelessly longing for my fantasy and yet helplessly clinging to you in reality
tell me... how such love would work? tell me... how could happiness be found here?
my beloved Marian: "You will have two serious relationships. Matagal mong makakasama yung first, pero 'yung second ang makakatuluyan mo. There's gonna be an "overlap" between the two, and there'll be a lot of complications. It'll be a rough road before you end up with the second one."
I say: "Let there be rough roads. Anyway we can never run from heartaches and pains. It's always part of loving someone. But it shouldn't always be sadness. Bottom line is, we still make our own destiny. I know I'll make mine when the time comes...and I'll make sure it's gonna be a choice I'll never regret for the rest of my life."
just this morning, i was hurrying to get out of the office. why is it that everytime that the girl's present, my day always gets spoiled in an instant? why is it that even if my ex and i have already broken up, i still feel that way...u know, curious if they're seated beside each other, if they're meeting behind my back, if there's something going on between them. am i jealous? oh hell yes! i am fucking jealous!!!
up to now i still have that intuition. lalo na ngayon na alam ko nang kaya nya akong pagsinungalingan. i clearly dont trust the guy anymore...both of them. i know they're both secretive. i just wish for the last time, he would tell me the "truest" truth...that he just don't love me anymore...that yes, he loved me but he wasn't in love with me. baka 'yun pa ang makapagbigay sa akin ng inaasam kong peace of mind.
when i got home, i was all alone. i tried to control my emotions. but still, i gave in. i cried...cried like hell. i just want this to get over with. i still love him. i cant deny it. but i know it's just going nowhere.
i fell in love with someone who just could not be faithful...who's just full of lies, pretenses, and betrayal...who just doesn't trust me either...
what can a girl do if she fell in love with someone whose heart plainly doesn't belong to her? even if i follow my heart, i know i would just go through more pain. i'm so sick and tired of all this shit. i am mad. the truth? i want to get revenge, i just don't know how. it seems like everything i do would just mean nothing to him. he won't get the message anyway. asa pa ako...
sad truth...i realized...WE'RE NOT MEANT FOR EACH OTHER AFTER ALL.
